October
Text Box: Pastor's Thoughts These thoughts are a tad more personal than I usually share but none the less, I like many of you struggle with my human weakness. My Christian journey has always included self discovery brought about by a blessed Divine intervention that is so simple I am embarrassed to admit I couldn't figure it out on my own. Having had a "God moment" just last week that took a giant self made load off of my back, I share these thoughts to remind you and me, He is always there to help. Confused, perplexed, bewildered, frustrated, stressed, and overwhelmed are terms that describe some of my days in this world. These underlying mental battle zones of my own making are often concealed with smiles, laughter, and other measures to avoid the slightest hint that I might not be in control of everything in my life. Maybe it is just a, "man thing" but even the hint that I am not in control makes me feel uncomfortable. I wrestle to find answers to questions that at times I don't even understand and the solution is more often than not beyond my means to accomplish. So why do I continue to subject myself to mental war games? Why do I get worked up over issues beyond my capability to repair at the cost of my own peace of mind? Here is the worst part of the dilemma, what I think I am masking has a tendency to leak through in moody and unpleasant attitudes. I find myself to be easily irritated on these days. More apt to find fault and be negative in general. This state of mind affects how I approach others in conversation, I'm short, uninterested, and self absorbed. Well sense I am being honest, I'll tell you, that kind of attitude stinks worse that forgetting to use deodorant. All of my human reasoning, wisdom, experience, and intellect usher me into a state of mental exhaustion that has no attractive features what so ever. Then God shows up! The song writer says it so well, "Oh what peace we often forfeit, oh what needless pain we bare, all because we do not carry everything to God in prayer. He can end the mental conflict and calm the wildest storm. An injection of His wisdom into our thought process can resolve any issue and restore our peace of mind. Why oh why do we choose to struggle in and with our flesh when HE IS THERE ALL THE TIME! Thank you Father for your timely intrusions into my thought process.